Getting Over Pain

For so many years, I always thought the best way to deal with pain was to talk it out.  My most frustrating moments with pain would be when my husband would say something snarky and leave for work.  As a stay-at-home mom, I'd be left to have the words last spoken to me ruminate inside my mind leading to new, negative thoughts and questions eventually turning me into a hot, melted blob of a mess.  Everytime, I'd write out my feelings or thoughts and leave it on the table.  This, in turn led to my husband trying to figure out what to do next, as I boiled under my skin.  Every attempt on his part to try to console me made me even angrier, and I never got closure from any of it.  It would just have to dissipate and stay inside until something new bothered me later, and then, they could both be added together.  This same thing would happen over and over until I just couldn't contain my pain, anymore.  By the end of three months, or so, I would babble out my pain and frustration, trying to stay audible through the tears and snot.  He would listen, and I would feel like a horrible person for cutting him down.
I have recently learned the better way to take care of this situation, as it just happened a few days ago.  I wrote out my letter of frustration.  After serious thought, an hour later, I put the note away.  New thoughts crept in, and I wrote out a whole page of "pity party" questions and put it on the table.  I sat on the couch and cried.  I prayed for God to take this pain and hurt away and to bless my husband at his job.  I found comfort in my Bible, and crumpled up that stupid paper on the table and threw it in the trash.  My thoughts were: "What was I thinking?  How would I like to come home to a note of such hurtful words?  Doesn't my husband have enough drama at work?" 
I went to the couch, again and read more in a book that is helping me out, greatly "Making Love Last Forever".  By the time I went to bed, I had euphoric peace, and when I woke, my husband was touching my hand asking me if I wanted McDonald's for breakfast!  I couldn't believe how awesome this morning was!
So, from this one night, I learned the best way to get over the pain of hurtful words was to pray it out to God, and let it go.  It is easier said than done, but it's not impossible.
Thank you, God!

Get Up and Do It!

Some people think that doing something new is too scary, or maybe they do self-talk, and they talk themselves out of being brave.  The thoughts that cripple us:  That's a stupid idea.  You'll never get anywhere by doing that.  Who do you think you're fooling? 
But I say, be brave.  Go for it!  Just try it, and see what happens.  If you fail, that's a lesson on how to do things better next time.  Don't give up if one detail doesn't cooperate.  Tweak it, and carry on.  You have a vision, an idea, and if you don't go through with your idea, who else will do it?
This is your time, and it's your journey.  You're only as strong as you allow yourself to be.  Don't be brought down by criticising words.  Listen to the criticism, and if it's not building you and helping you, throw it away.  Let it go.
Believe that you have the power and authority to do this great thing.
You are in charge of your happiness.  You need to take the steps to make your life better, because it's your boat, and you have the power to change direction at anytime.
"If you want something you've never had, you've got to do something you've never done.  If you keep doing the things you've always done, you'll always have what you've always had."
Give everything equal amounts of thought, and consider your avenues, but don't stop and not go, again.  The world needs to see what you're capable of.  Besides, there's always someone waiting and watching you that will be inspired.  To my surprise, I have older people, as well as younger people that watch me, and they get encouragement from things I do or words I say.  Never think you're insignificant to change the lives of those around you.  You're not here for no reason.  God put us all here to help each other.
I hope you find something you're good at, or something you've always wanted to do, and do it!

Keep Getting Back Up

So many times
I have been knocked down
Knocked down by
Good things and not so good things
Sometimes, it was hard for me
To find the way
To get back up, again
But I did, everytime
Everytime I got back up
I was changed
I was changed
To see what had knocked me down
And not let it knock me down, again
But there are still times
When some of the same old things
Bring me to my knees
For those things
I find it easier to get back up
I have learned the patterns
And evaluated the importance
I find the strength
How?
Through prayer,
Listening to preaching,
Sharing my heart with others
And learning the new combination
To the various locks set before me
I am not weak, and I'm no fool
I will never give up
I will always
Get back up!

World of Nerf

If this world were made of Nerf
I could jump all over the place.
I could jump out a window on my second floor
And land without a scratch.
If this world were made of Nerf
I could kick a Nerf tree
And not scratch my toes.
I could run barefoot all over and not worry
That my feet are going to get torn up.
If this world were made of Nerf
The ground would be orange.
Would that change the color of the sky?
We could use wet wipes to clean dirty spots
In our yard.
If this world were made of Nerf
I'd have to fill a swimming pool
With jello and bounce in off the top
Of my house.
If this world were made of Nerf
Kids would play outdoors
Much more.
If this world were made of Nerf
The dude who invented it
Would be the president.
I love Nerf.

Grateful Heart

Bursting with joy!
Singing with confidence,
And loving every minute of it!
What is this life worth?
Every moment I find worth
More and more than the last.
Tasting every breath for the
Importance God placed upon it.
Breathing the breath I have been given
To fulfill a dream set in my heart
From the very start.
I don't think I'll ever, really be able
To fully appreciate how miraculous
These gifts are that have been
Given to me. :)
I'm grateful for my three kids.
I'm a stronger woman for the man
That's been placed in my life.
Never before would I have been able
To see the place I've been put today.
Some may see my life as simple and underwhelming,
But not me.
This, all of this, is such an amazing,
Wonderful, glorious blessing
That I thank God for everyday.
I'm not rich in money,
And I'm not physically a super hero.
As for love, compassion, respect and devotion,
I am richly blessed.
There is nothing man can offer
That can ever outweigh the promises
God has made to me.
I may go through trials, temptations and setbacks,
But for me, they're not failures.
They are my stepping stones to success.

Our Job In A World of Fear

No matter how much time passes
The pain is there as if today
There are no rose colored glasses
To blur the scar of yesterday

As I watched in agony
A river flowed down my face
I couldn’t help only see
The dust fill up every space

Heroes and victims
We have them both
Moments of silence
Brings forth the truth

Loved ones and strangers
No diff’rence to us
Turmoil and dangers
God is who we trust

A world drowning in fear
Cannot see the promise we do
Show them God is so near
And His word forever is true

Shine the light of God most high
Share His love with everyone
We don’t know but He knows why
Trust in Him and in His Son

Reach out, be there
Listen, love and care
Hug them, repair
Replace their despair


It’s not too late
Use this time, now
No time to wait
To show them how

Fear not for yourself
Fear not at all
For faith is your wealth
Answer His call

Empathy and sympathy
And Feel for your neighbor
This is all a recipe
To work for your Savior

Failure Is Not An Option

Failure is defined as an inability to do an expected or required action.  Inability comes from a lack of training.  In my mind, failure is not an option.  I must be ready and willing to learn all I can for whatever life brings to my table, so I continue to press on, move forward and learn all I can about things I don't know.  No, I'll never know all, but I can learn as much as I can, and I can perform to my best.

I say these things, because I was going down a tunnel, feeling a failure.  I gave up, and thought I'd lost my cause.  My faith was broken, and I was drifting from a great cause I stood for.  My mind was lost.  My heart was crushed.  I'm talking of my spiritual self.  I was withering.

But, by God's grace and mercy, He spoke to me.  He spoke at church camp, and I stayed back, when I should've gone forward.  He spoke during Sunday school.  But, when it came time for church, He shouted!  He called me out, and I knew I was revived!  My heart cried, and I was snapped back to reality.  I knew my faith needed some love and tender care.

I am not a failure, and I will not give up.  I will persevere with training and working on my faith with my tools I've been given.  I was given a Bible-good place to start.  I was given the Power of Prayer-true freedom line.  I was given chance after chance, and I won't waste this chance.  I'm done with chance.  I'm taking a stand for my salvation, and I won't let my soul slip down the drain.  I'm not falling through the cracks.  I'm feeding my spirit, and flesh will learn to obey. 

For too long, I'd thought it was just going to happen naturally.  Now, I know it's going to happen spiritually, and I'm equipping myself. 

It really sucks how easy it is to slip and slide away from where I once was.  I faded my colors, and thought I'd blend in.  It's not that simple, and I don't want to fade away.  I am a beautiful, radiant flower that will stick out.  I may even look weird, but that's normal to me.  I'm God's, and I'm going to make sure I live like it.  I am a woman of worth and God loves me for me.  I don't need to fly under the radar and hide with the others.

Failure is not an option.  I will win.  I must win.  God is my Father, and He doesn't make junk.  I was put here to make a difference, and I will.