Failure Is Not An Option

Failure is defined as an inability to do an expected or required action.  Inability comes from a lack of training.  In my mind, failure is not an option.  I must be ready and willing to learn all I can for whatever life brings to my table, so I continue to press on, move forward and learn all I can about things I don't know.  No, I'll never know all, but I can learn as much as I can, and I can perform to my best.

I say these things, because I was going down a tunnel, feeling a failure.  I gave up, and thought I'd lost my cause.  My faith was broken, and I was drifting from a great cause I stood for.  My mind was lost.  My heart was crushed.  I'm talking of my spiritual self.  I was withering.

But, by God's grace and mercy, He spoke to me.  He spoke at church camp, and I stayed back, when I should've gone forward.  He spoke during Sunday school.  But, when it came time for church, He shouted!  He called me out, and I knew I was revived!  My heart cried, and I was snapped back to reality.  I knew my faith needed some love and tender care.

I am not a failure, and I will not give up.  I will persevere with training and working on my faith with my tools I've been given.  I was given a Bible-good place to start.  I was given the Power of Prayer-true freedom line.  I was given chance after chance, and I won't waste this chance.  I'm done with chance.  I'm taking a stand for my salvation, and I won't let my soul slip down the drain.  I'm not falling through the cracks.  I'm feeding my spirit, and flesh will learn to obey. 

For too long, I'd thought it was just going to happen naturally.  Now, I know it's going to happen spiritually, and I'm equipping myself. 

It really sucks how easy it is to slip and slide away from where I once was.  I faded my colors, and thought I'd blend in.  It's not that simple, and I don't want to fade away.  I am a beautiful, radiant flower that will stick out.  I may even look weird, but that's normal to me.  I'm God's, and I'm going to make sure I live like it.  I am a woman of worth and God loves me for me.  I don't need to fly under the radar and hide with the others.

Failure is not an option.  I will win.  I must win.  God is my Father, and He doesn't make junk.  I was put here to make a difference, and I will.

Always a Plan

You know, no matter where you are, or what you're going through, God has a plan.  He has a superior plan that overrides all our plans.  We think we have control, sometimes, but soon realize God's plan will always prevail.  The sooner we understand that, the easier life becomes, to an extent.  Life doesn't get simpler, and people don't treat us much better, but we learn to accept things for what they are and trust in God to love us.  God loves all of us, no matter what state we're in.  If there is trouble, it's not of God, and He didn't create the bad things.  There is a definite enemy to all of us, but it's not God.  Praise God in good times and bad, because He loves us!  When you're not sure where to go, who to turn to or what to do, pray God will open a new door.  Pray, always for guidance, wisdom and knowledge from God, and be grateful in all your days.  God never changes, even though our circumstances do.  He loves us unconditionally, and He never leaves us.  Search out your heart and figure out the faulty parts and ask God to forgive you and help you to always turn to Him in times of struggle.  Be thankful of the blessings God gives, but don't worship them or the creations of God.  Only worship and praise God. 
I have been to very high places, in my life, where it seems nothing can touch me, and I've been to extremely low places, where I just couldn't see the light, no matter what direction I turned.  Life is tough, and times can be challenging, but through my walk with God, I've learned every thing's easier to deal with if I just continue to lift my face to God and thank Him for my life.  I thank Him for just being who He is.  He is above all I could ever imagine, and gives me what I need everyday.  When bad times come, and they don't stop, just because of Him, I see them as challenges or learning times.  It's just easier to change my thinking into God taking care of me in my situations and knowing He will guide me through.
It used to be hard for me to seek Him out, first, in every situation, but after so many times of coming to Him last, and getting my answer I wished I had, at first, I've learned to pray before everything.

I always begin my days with prayers of thanks for the day, my night's sleep and what the day will bring.  I read my Bible, devotions and inspirational reading, because it lifts my heart and reminds me that God is always right there.  He has an ultimate plan, and I'm not alone, no matter how lost I may feel.

Glory To God

There's just so much love flowing through me.  It makes me smile and sometimes laugh, just knowing it's there.  I got it from God.  The more I seek out God's word, praise Him and pray to Him, I am filled beyond measure with sweetness.  It hasn't always been this way, though.
I started out, before I surrendered, as a girl only out to get what she needed, or so I thought.  I found myself never being satisfied and always needing more and more of things I couldn't afford to get.  I was completely lost.
I didn't surrender completely, at first, either.  When I first "gave my heart to God", I let down a load of my burdens, but insisted to carry another load I had no idea I still had.  I left God several times.  I even took a year "break" from church to find out what I needed to do. 
Out of a prayer came an answer.  I took a chance and found a new church, not by accident, or coincidence, but by the will of God.  It's been two years, and I surrendered, completely only after the first week there.  I felt the last burden of baggage leave me.  I submerged myself with all that I could, so I could keep myself on track.
Last year, I could see myself growing more and more with my faith, love and understanding.  I do all I can, now to keep myself humble, serving and loving God.  How?  All I do is love everyone I talk to.  I give hugs, have conversations, listen, and pray for those I feel need the prayers.  I praise God, everyday, because He's so wonderful!  I thank Him for my everyday and for all He's brought me through.  It doesn't matter my circumstances, God never changes, and He loves me, still.  I was a dirty, rotten, messed up lady.  I used to be, but now, I am so thankful, He took me into His arms and forgave me.
I ask forgiveness everyday, because I'm not perfect.  I hope everyone knows that.  I'm not a very quiet person, either.  I laugh more at myself than anyone else, because of how rediculous things I do are. 
I am who I am, because God made me that way.  I am so thankful that God made us for His purpose.  That puts it all into perspective, for me.  No matter what I go through or what comes against me, He's always watching, and I trust that.  I'll never stop working for Him.  I will do my best to give Him honor and glory and praise Him in the morning, noon and night.  He is worthy of all praise!
I hope and pray that through me, more people can accept Jesus into their hearts, knowing, it doesn't matter what place you're in, or how many "bad" things you've done, God loves you, and He's waiting for You to say, "Yes!"
It's not easy, and the responsibility of taking care of yourself is hard, too.  The thing is, we all gotta start somewhere, and sometime.  Why not now?