Getting Over Pain

For so many years, I always thought the best way to deal with pain was to talk it out.  My most frustrating moments with pain would be when my husband would say something snarky and leave for work.  As a stay-at-home mom, I'd be left to have the words last spoken to me ruminate inside my mind leading to new, negative thoughts and questions eventually turning me into a hot, melted blob of a mess.  Everytime, I'd write out my feelings or thoughts and leave it on the table.  This, in turn led to my husband trying to figure out what to do next, as I boiled under my skin.  Every attempt on his part to try to console me made me even angrier, and I never got closure from any of it.  It would just have to dissipate and stay inside until something new bothered me later, and then, they could both be added together.  This same thing would happen over and over until I just couldn't contain my pain, anymore.  By the end of three months, or so, I would babble out my pain and frustration, trying to stay audible through the tears and snot.  He would listen, and I would feel like a horrible person for cutting him down.
I have recently learned the better way to take care of this situation, as it just happened a few days ago.  I wrote out my letter of frustration.  After serious thought, an hour later, I put the note away.  New thoughts crept in, and I wrote out a whole page of "pity party" questions and put it on the table.  I sat on the couch and cried.  I prayed for God to take this pain and hurt away and to bless my husband at his job.  I found comfort in my Bible, and crumpled up that stupid paper on the table and threw it in the trash.  My thoughts were: "What was I thinking?  How would I like to come home to a note of such hurtful words?  Doesn't my husband have enough drama at work?" 
I went to the couch, again and read more in a book that is helping me out, greatly "Making Love Last Forever".  By the time I went to bed, I had euphoric peace, and when I woke, my husband was touching my hand asking me if I wanted McDonald's for breakfast!  I couldn't believe how awesome this morning was!
So, from this one night, I learned the best way to get over the pain of hurtful words was to pray it out to God, and let it go.  It is easier said than done, but it's not impossible.
Thank you, God!

Keep Getting Back Up

So many times
I have been knocked down
Knocked down by
Good things and not so good things
Sometimes, it was hard for me
To find the way
To get back up, again
But I did, everytime
Everytime I got back up
I was changed
I was changed
To see what had knocked me down
And not let it knock me down, again
But there are still times
When some of the same old things
Bring me to my knees
For those things
I find it easier to get back up
I have learned the patterns
And evaluated the importance
I find the strength
How?
Through prayer,
Listening to preaching,
Sharing my heart with others
And learning the new combination
To the various locks set before me
I am not weak, and I'm no fool
I will never give up
I will always
Get back up!

Riding the Waves of Life

Do the waves of life well up and come crashing down on you?  Are you tossed and pulled under by the undertow just to be coughed up and bowled under, again and again?  It doesn't have to be that way.  You don't have to go through life in fear, paralyzed by doubt of what's next.  Teach yourself to prepare.  Swim out a little, find the wave before it bowls you over, and stroke to catch it.  Make each moment count, and don't worry about what's coming next, because each wave can turn out to be one awesome ride after another.  After you've ridden that wave, you know there are more behind it, and you know to get past those ones that are insignificant, all you gotta do is dive right under them, and prepare for the next big one.  Life presents challenges, and circumstances that we cannot predict, but we can prepare for anything.  Find the rhythm of the current, and flow with it.
Let all the colors, sounds, tastes, smells and feelings present you with all the wonder the world holds.  Life isn't a ride you cannot control, like a roller coaster you're strapped into without your consent.  No, life is what you make it.  You set your goals, learn the rules, engage in roles and go for it.  Make each moment count as if you have nothing left but that moment.  Don't let your life slip on bye, because you'll not have this moment, right here, again.  Don't hold onto the past, and don't fear the future, just make this time the most it can be.  Live...

SpRiNkLeD wItH tWiNkLeS

Seeking out the many parts
Along life's journey
We measure in plenty hearts
While we're learning

And many days
We think we know
All the ways
And then we grow

When we look
We see the twinkling
Not of a book
Comes pretty sprinkling

Seasoning in a once bland
And boring place
Coloring on our land
By mercy and grace

So many chances
To stop and pray
In quick glances
Fading to gray

Take it for what it's worth
And live each moment
To the fullest

No one can make you do it
You must choose
And do it well

Don't fade into gray
The way some do

Live to see the sweetness that's been spread before you.  Seek out the beauty in your everyday.  Slow down and enjoy time and everything.  Life's a fleeting breath, and it's here for us to enjoy.  Live like it's your last day.  Love like you will never run out.  Laugh with all your heart, so no one can say you were fakin' it.  Do what you do, and let no one tell you your dreams don't mean a thing.  Dreams inspire life!