Grateful Heart

Bursting with joy!
Singing with confidence,
And loving every minute of it!
What is this life worth?
Every moment I find worth
More and more than the last.
Tasting every breath for the
Importance God placed upon it.
Breathing the breath I have been given
To fulfill a dream set in my heart
From the very start.
I don't think I'll ever, really be able
To fully appreciate how miraculous
These gifts are that have been
Given to me. :)
I'm grateful for my three kids.
I'm a stronger woman for the man
That's been placed in my life.
Never before would I have been able
To see the place I've been put today.
Some may see my life as simple and underwhelming,
But not me.
This, all of this, is such an amazing,
Wonderful, glorious blessing
That I thank God for everyday.
I'm not rich in money,
And I'm not physically a super hero.
As for love, compassion, respect and devotion,
I am richly blessed.
There is nothing man can offer
That can ever outweigh the promises
God has made to me.
I may go through trials, temptations and setbacks,
But for me, they're not failures.
They are my stepping stones to success.

Our Job In A World of Fear

No matter how much time passes
The pain is there as if today
There are no rose colored glasses
To blur the scar of yesterday

As I watched in agony
A river flowed down my face
I couldn’t help only see
The dust fill up every space

Heroes and victims
We have them both
Moments of silence
Brings forth the truth

Loved ones and strangers
No diff’rence to us
Turmoil and dangers
God is who we trust

A world drowning in fear
Cannot see the promise we do
Show them God is so near
And His word forever is true

Shine the light of God most high
Share His love with everyone
We don’t know but He knows why
Trust in Him and in His Son

Reach out, be there
Listen, love and care
Hug them, repair
Replace their despair


It’s not too late
Use this time, now
No time to wait
To show them how

Fear not for yourself
Fear not at all
For faith is your wealth
Answer His call

Empathy and sympathy
And Feel for your neighbor
This is all a recipe
To work for your Savior

Failure Is Not An Option

Failure is defined as an inability to do an expected or required action.  Inability comes from a lack of training.  In my mind, failure is not an option.  I must be ready and willing to learn all I can for whatever life brings to my table, so I continue to press on, move forward and learn all I can about things I don't know.  No, I'll never know all, but I can learn as much as I can, and I can perform to my best.

I say these things, because I was going down a tunnel, feeling a failure.  I gave up, and thought I'd lost my cause.  My faith was broken, and I was drifting from a great cause I stood for.  My mind was lost.  My heart was crushed.  I'm talking of my spiritual self.  I was withering.

But, by God's grace and mercy, He spoke to me.  He spoke at church camp, and I stayed back, when I should've gone forward.  He spoke during Sunday school.  But, when it came time for church, He shouted!  He called me out, and I knew I was revived!  My heart cried, and I was snapped back to reality.  I knew my faith needed some love and tender care.

I am not a failure, and I will not give up.  I will persevere with training and working on my faith with my tools I've been given.  I was given a Bible-good place to start.  I was given the Power of Prayer-true freedom line.  I was given chance after chance, and I won't waste this chance.  I'm done with chance.  I'm taking a stand for my salvation, and I won't let my soul slip down the drain.  I'm not falling through the cracks.  I'm feeding my spirit, and flesh will learn to obey. 

For too long, I'd thought it was just going to happen naturally.  Now, I know it's going to happen spiritually, and I'm equipping myself. 

It really sucks how easy it is to slip and slide away from where I once was.  I faded my colors, and thought I'd blend in.  It's not that simple, and I don't want to fade away.  I am a beautiful, radiant flower that will stick out.  I may even look weird, but that's normal to me.  I'm God's, and I'm going to make sure I live like it.  I am a woman of worth and God loves me for me.  I don't need to fly under the radar and hide with the others.

Failure is not an option.  I will win.  I must win.  God is my Father, and He doesn't make junk.  I was put here to make a difference, and I will.

Riding the Waves of Life

Do the waves of life well up and come crashing down on you?  Are you tossed and pulled under by the undertow just to be coughed up and bowled under, again and again?  It doesn't have to be that way.  You don't have to go through life in fear, paralyzed by doubt of what's next.  Teach yourself to prepare.  Swim out a little, find the wave before it bowls you over, and stroke to catch it.  Make each moment count, and don't worry about what's coming next, because each wave can turn out to be one awesome ride after another.  After you've ridden that wave, you know there are more behind it, and you know to get past those ones that are insignificant, all you gotta do is dive right under them, and prepare for the next big one.  Life presents challenges, and circumstances that we cannot predict, but we can prepare for anything.  Find the rhythm of the current, and flow with it.
Let all the colors, sounds, tastes, smells and feelings present you with all the wonder the world holds.  Life isn't a ride you cannot control, like a roller coaster you're strapped into without your consent.  No, life is what you make it.  You set your goals, learn the rules, engage in roles and go for it.  Make each moment count as if you have nothing left but that moment.  Don't let your life slip on bye, because you'll not have this moment, right here, again.  Don't hold onto the past, and don't fear the future, just make this time the most it can be.  Live...

World of Confusion

After being a stay-at-home mom for the past seven years, it's been quite a challenge to learn how life works with working, again.  The life I had has been turned sideways, and trying to get everything to work in cooperation has been a challenge, too.  I have only been working for four months, so far, and I have to get this confusion to stop!  I thought it would be easier, but with an on-call job where I work different shifts different days without set days off, life at home has come crashing down on me.  Luckily, it's mostly in my mind I need to organize, but still, if it gets as bad in the physical as it has become in the mental, I'll be in trouble.  Now is the time to stop, breathe, focus and regroup.  I have been cutting back in both areas, and now I just have to learn how to get the new life functioning with less break-downs.  It's not fair for anyone for me to get all worked up over tiny things, when the true problem is within me.  I have to get all the thoughts onto paper, and get those thoughts organized as well as organize my house and learn to make time for all my most important things, especially my kids and husband.  My house needs my attention, but the stress was overwhelming.  I do love my jobs, and I know it's important to create a good working history, and I've got goals for future progress, but today is the day I'm in, and today has to be completed to get to the future events.  I've been so confused, lately, and with mine and my husband's schedules not work quite together has made communications difficult.  There has to be down time and recuperation times. 

Butterfly Brain

My brain is like a butterfly.  It's beautiful and complex.  It gets lifted with the slightest breath, and when the rain of life falls, it must take a break, not fly and wait for the brighter days to come.  Its wings fold and expand with the exercise of daily life.  So delicate and flighty!  But, please don't rub, because the powder will come off, and my mind will find it hard to fly anymore.  So, use caution looking into this mind, and be mindful to take care when befriending.  I hurt easy, and I love long.  So many fingers have touched my wings, and they've been repaired over and over again.  I find it difficult to do, and they're never the same after such torment.  The colors, flavors and sweet aromas that drift through to their own drummer fill my world and surround the beauty of it all.  Only three decades have passed, but so much work has been done.  Someday, I hope it will be as beautiful as a Luna Moth.

Crowded

They're to the left, to the right,
They're right in front of me
They're here, and they're still coming
They surround me so tightly
If I try to move, I'll bump into them
What would they think?
How would they feel?
The tightness of the space I have
Is so uncomfortably small
If I cry, will they attack?
Why do they press in so?
Do they need to be this close?
There's no room for me to move
I cannot understand where I'm to go
What I'm to do
I want to just get out
I want to break free
But even after breaking through the first ring
There's layer upon layer of them surrounding me
It's not normal to be this close
I cannot stand not being able to move,
So I crawl
I crawl as far as I can go
I'm free, and they're still there
They're still jam packed
Against each other like peanut foam
I'm out, and they cannot see me
I've gotta go
I have to run
Because if they catch up to me
I'll be trapped, again