World of Confusion

After being a stay-at-home mom for the past seven years, it's been quite a challenge to learn how life works with working, again.  The life I had has been turned sideways, and trying to get everything to work in cooperation has been a challenge, too.  I have only been working for four months, so far, and I have to get this confusion to stop!  I thought it would be easier, but with an on-call job where I work different shifts different days without set days off, life at home has come crashing down on me.  Luckily, it's mostly in my mind I need to organize, but still, if it gets as bad in the physical as it has become in the mental, I'll be in trouble.  Now is the time to stop, breathe, focus and regroup.  I have been cutting back in both areas, and now I just have to learn how to get the new life functioning with less break-downs.  It's not fair for anyone for me to get all worked up over tiny things, when the true problem is within me.  I have to get all the thoughts onto paper, and get those thoughts organized as well as organize my house and learn to make time for all my most important things, especially my kids and husband.  My house needs my attention, but the stress was overwhelming.  I do love my jobs, and I know it's important to create a good working history, and I've got goals for future progress, but today is the day I'm in, and today has to be completed to get to the future events.  I've been so confused, lately, and with mine and my husband's schedules not work quite together has made communications difficult.  There has to be down time and recuperation times.