I have found I tend to be repetitious in my life.
I am aware some people hate repetition, but I've always found it fun.
In music, pieces of art, and in my life, repetition feels comfortable.
It occurred to me recently how even if I complain about something or find a fault, I usually repeat the action. This past week, I found myself telling a teacher that five courses are a lot for one semester. I have no time for anything but schoolwork. Here I am in my second year with five courses, but I am happier at this point because I have found time to fit in pool time and a few, other activities.
I think back to a few quizzes and tests where I answered a question wrong. I told myself the correct answer and I reasoned it out. Yet, when answering the same question, again, I still answered it wrong. In math, it's because I wasn't happy just doing the simple equation. I wanted it to be more complex. In another class, I didn't like the reasoning behind the correct response, because I had reasoning outside what was presented to me. Noticing this habit of repetition just for comfort is very frustrating to me because I know these things are not right and not acceptable. So, I have learned to accept the marks against my redundancy, and I have accepted that I choose to repeat things that annoy me.
I am trying to learn new habits, but repetition is a habit I've had since childhood. Changing that habit will take a lot of time, practice and yes, repetition.
